Sometimes I hear God in my own words! I can be praying for days looking for an answer and at the strangest moment, I come up with some thought to help out one of my kids that it is like a slap in the face of what I needed to hear!!
For example, I was going through some very rough times in my life about a year ago. I thought my life was going to be over, I had no clue how I was going to recover. I was the lowest I could ever remember being. As I was sitting on the deck watching the girls play in the yard, Millie fell down, not hard mind you, and started screaming to the max. I went down, comforted her, showed her that her injury left no mark on her and told her to get up, dust off and move on. The pain would go away if she just kept going.
Yep, at that moment I looked up and thanked God for the answer.
Could it be in a message from my pastor or friends during a Bible Study, or from a song I have heard a million times but just this once I listened and heard something different!!
But that is also when I start to doubt. AM I hearing Him or just making things up to fit into my life and what I want to hear? It can almost drive a person to insanity just trying to figure that out!! They talk to their pastor, their closest friends, counselors trying desperately to figure out, "Did I hear God or am I crazy and making this up?"
If you are in constant prayer and communication with God, why would one believe it could be anything else? Every step of every day that I take is led by Him. I pray from the moment I wake until the moment I sleep at night. I pray for His direction in every aspect of my life. How could I doubt, or how could anyone else tell me that I have not heard Him. They aren't me!
I am at that point. I am very certain I have heard Him. I think it is crazy as to what I have been told I need to do with my life and how my prayers WERE answered. It just doesn't make sense. I have found a couple of books...not searching them out, just happened to come across them, and I am amazed at what I am reading. I have to stress that I did NOT seek these books out for their content. I merely search free books on my Kindle every now and again and download things I might like to read. I have everything from kids books to high school biology books. Why....they could be interesting!
So, I start reading this book, not thinking it was going to have anything that I could apply to my life. I should backtrack a bit and say that I am not a fan of "fake" books, novels, fiction. I get too critical of them, maybe it is because I am a realist, or just the fact that I don't have the greatest imagination. One of my favorite books was "The Time of My Life" written by Patrick Swayze and Lisa Niemi. It was all about the life and struggles those two had as husband and wife, and separately.
I am not going to disclose the names of the books I am reading at this time, as they may cause some to put their own two cents in on my life. The books I have read ARE biblical based books by very christian women. They are about struggles they have faced in their lives and how they overcame and learned to live again. My struggles are not the same as theirs, but their words of wisdom DO come into play with what I have been praying, almost begging God for lately.
Not only have these two books spoken to me, I have also had the opportunity to hear some pretty amazing sermons lately. Again, these people had NO CLUE of the struggles I have been having. Yet, in those moments, the questions I have posed to God in my daily prayers were answered by their sermons. Coincidence??? I don't believe in them!
I believe God uses whatever He can to get our attention. I believe God uses methods that differ for each individual because if he sent a burning bush to get my attention, I would just call 911. If he sent an angel coming in the night to wake me and tell me all is well, I again would call 911. Those ways are not the ways to get to me. Music, books, teachings, my kids....all areas where I learn the most.
So, I will go into this day, again praising and worshiping Him and thanking Him for all of His goodness. I will go open and ready to hear whatever it is He has in store for me and trusting that it is His will and not my own that I am following. I cannot guarantee I will slip and maybe make a mistake or two along the way, but I will always do my best to stay on the path He has laid out in front of me. He never said it would be easy, but He does PROMISE it will be worth it!
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