Where did my attention span go???

Hello everyone!! I am starting a blog because I have tried many times to write a book, but I just cannot stay on topic. Hence the title "Where did my attention span go?"

So, this blog is going to serve as an outlet to let you know the random thoughts that run through my head. Most of them are due to experiences with my four kids, so be prepared to hear a lot about them!! If you don't like to hear about my kids and my love for Jesus, then just stop reading here!!

Ok, I warned you....here it goes!! On November 20, 2011 I was baptized by my pastor Phil Dorries. I had a GREAT summer reading the book Dangerous Wonder by Michael Yaconnelli, I highly recommend the book, and had come to a clarity that I have NEVER had before!! The book helped me to appreciate my kids, my God and my life in a way that seemed foreign to me. To finally understand what it meant to be loved without condition...amazing. To know that there is a God in Heaven, and understand a little bit of His will for me, words cannot describe.

I had been working for a long time in an environment that was FILLED everyday with negativity. It was a rare ocassion to have a good day without someone making sure you felt worthless!! I realized how miserable I was there and tried to make things different. But when you are surrounded by so much evil and negativity, even the strongest light can be extinguished. In March, I decided to leave my job and be a stay at home mom, a Domestic Engineer, a CEO of Child Development...whatever you want to call it.

Now, many people THINK they know my life. Many people THINK they know the truth about everything. I am here to tell you, NO ONE knows me more than me!! Over the last year, I have grown so much! I have FINALLY figured out who I am and what I am meant to do and have become even more confident in myself. I am at a place that it is safe for me to lose weight, not for any reason other than I want to LOOK on the outside how I FEEL on the inside.

I don't think there are enough words in the universe to explain my joy. My joy comes from God. My joy comes from my kids. My joy comes from seeing Christ in others. If I ever have a day that I start to feel down, I grab my Bible and start to read Matthew 6. I read the words that I am not to worry, not to fear, God will provide. He has provided, He will provide and He has a plan for me.

So, I have rambled on for a bit, I am going to leave this at this point and look for more ramblings from my crazy brain to be posted again!!

Have a great day and remember, GOD LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!